inside a nutshell of a 30 something lady *wink*

I would like to begin this blog entry from a cliche' from Hervey Allen saying -- "The only time you really live fully is from thirty to sixty. The young are slaves to dreams; the old servants of regrets. Only the middle-aged have all their five senses in the keeping of their wits."

I love this cliche', it depicts exactly what a 30 something lady like me is going through as an individual.  Turning 30 for me was something that I was afraid of back then.  It looks like a BIG, scary milestone in my life.  But now that I'm here, it's not that bad and scary at all.  In fact, I enjoy being 30!  Why not?  I am healthy (that's what I think :p), financially independent, able to help the family, able to travel in some parts of the Philippines and it's neighboring countries (naks!) and loving someone and being loved back hihi.  30, as they say is just a number.  I have no qualms in growing old and mentioning my age to other people basta ba may pinagkatandaan.  I feel that during this time, I am living my life to the fullest, having the time of my life, becoming the woman that I wanted to be back when I was still a kid and sharing this whole journey with someone who is close to my heart and who keeps me inspired and motivated all the time (except for bad days) haha! 

I still  have my dreams and aspirations in life.  But I'm more confident now to pursue those dreams and making them into a reality.  I believe I'm just a few steps away from achieving them.  And now, the only thing that keeps me hopeful and optimistic about the future is the idea of having my own family.  That would be nice to see it coming 2-3 years down the road.  As what I always hear during our meetings in the office "this is still in the pipeline", or better yet still in progress or still under construction hihi! But seriously, I'm still praying for it.  I am hopeful that God will answer my prayers in His own perfect time! :)

an open letter for myself

Bakit ba ang sakit-sakit masaktan pagdating sa larangan ng pag-ibig?  Tagos hanggang buto... ilang araw ko na din nararamdaman ang sarili ko tuwing madaling araw na humihikbi at tuloy ang agos ng luha sa aking mga mata.  Hindi ba't ako ang may kagustuhan nito?  Pero bakit ang sakit pa din?  Kahit na alam kong mahal ko pa din sya, pilit kong tinitiis ang sakit para lng mapanindigan ang puntong nais kng ipaintindi kng bakit ako bumitiw sa relasyon.  Maraming mga bagay akong inisip bago ako nakapag desisyon na tapusin na ang lahat-lahat sa amin.  At sa mga dahilang ito ko nakita na siguro nga'y hindi kami tlga para sa isa't-isa.  Ayokong sabihin na ito ang itinadhana para sa amin dahil kami din naman ang gumawa ng mga dahilan kng bakit kami humantong sa ganito.  Masakit man ay kailangan kong tanggapin at intindihin ang nangyari sa amin.  Maikli  man ang aming pinagsamahan bilang magkasintahan, maituturing ko pa ring isang magandang karanasan ang sya ay nakilala at nakasama.  Sya pa din ang aking unang pag-ibig, una sa lahat ng bagay.  Gusto kong isipin na sa kahit maikling panahon ay nadamayan ko sya sa hirap at maging sa kasayahan man.  Alam ko na kailangan ko itong pagdaanan at makayanan, upang sa darating na panahon ay  matuto ako at maging marunong sa mga gagawing desisyon sa buhay... so help me God!!!

me @ past 2am doing photo shoots

What to do on this rainy Friday dawn?  Aside from checking on my Facebook,
I was bored and not yet sleepy... damn starbucks coffee after office!!
and so here I am taking pictures of myself using my laptop's cam. 
Although it did not do wonders to my not-so-pimpled-free face... har! har!

Doing the angled shot!  Naks... me ganun??? hahaha!!

 

 

meeeh: (smiling while posing for the cam)
sis: zzzzZZZZzzzzz
meeeh: typing slowly so as not to awaken the sleeping beauty
sis: zzzzZZZZzzzzz zzzzZZZZzzzzz

Looking on the screen and not on the camera with a hint of smile on my face... yehessss!!

At last, my eyes are drooping now and my bed is waiting... good nyt y'all!!

My first post...

Hi there!! This is my first post for my new blog... I was inspired to create my own blog because of the things that happened in my life for the past 27 years of my existence. I just got into thinking what have happened to me all those years??? From my growing up years up to now that I am working and still single… huwaaattt??? hahaha!!! At the same time, I want to exercise the brain cells in my mind to think and write the thoughts that I keep to myself. Maybe, through this blog I can be able to enhance my creative, logical, analytical, mathematical and whatever kind of thinking that I can enhance… har! har! Going back to my life… uuhhmmm I believe that God has a path for my feet to follow, a plan for my heart to discover and a purpose for my life to fulfill… wow!! Deeeeep. And that is, my friend, I have yet to discover by God's grace.